Jazz 2: Orpheus

I. His Intro
Orpheus is a child without a name everyone
has taken his name
the words in the air are already too crowded we need to remove some
unnecessary words and his name
belongs to the kind that can be crossed out in batches, then
cross it out remember to black it over with a pen
he grows a little taller he can walk unsteadily through
the public station, he has never traveled so far from home.
Mother says she will take him to see Father, she has broken the promise several times. What mother has not
carried him like a kangaroo through the town center, occasionally slapped his face
don't eat what other people are holding, don't move closer to smell it, don't eat snot
don't ask other people for money, don't let them look down on you.
At the station he stands on the arm of a waiting-room chair, an acrobat
someone plays a piece of music, how beautiful what instrument is that
the smell of red meat fills this station, Mother where are you
but he will play the clarinet, that is
after he grows up, a bald man teaches him. They stand smoking at the door, Baldy says
he has no name either but, some music is made for slaves, servants, the humiliated, people without names
it burns and pounds inside you like honey squeezed from the wax glands of worker bees
however much time has been wasted, that is how fiercely your spirit must cry out. Let it out!
You play so well, has anyone ever told you
you could be a musician?
The streetlight strikes Baldy's bald head, his swollen scalp resembles
a damp golden star
next—Baldy opens the palm of Orpheus's right hand—try, with this music, to dance
II. Meanwhile She Arrives
from beneath the sea she rises
from inside the shell she knows beauty
from the feather she understands weight
from the aperture of night, the dark side of light, the hydrothermal oxygen
from the other side of the dance floor she comes
III. In the Hallucination They Are Carefree
I am a sailor I once followed, the ship Argo
the hero Jason wanted to seize a Golden Fleece, he recorded the prophecy and the legend he would fulfill
on his résumé, for this he was willing
to stop at nothing, therefore, waves overturned us, sirens paralyzed us, stars sank us
then I danced on the deck, I turned so hard the wood began bleeding
spare them, said a god, among them is a madman, he dances as if life lasts only as long as one song
and I am a nymph from the valley I too
have heard enough mounted men boast.
They exchange secrets in voices like bells, ensuring
I can hear the echo of hormones
woman, follow here the formula for happiness
obey the proper signal, keep the mountain's instruction
whatever wisdom Pan says will make you unhappy
you must discard
I have none of what you want, everything you expect will fail
my name has been taken from me my
words are in other people's mouths
listen around us, listen to the lazy people
trying to invent a universal word
that meets the standard of beauty in every rhythm.
Now look at me: I do not care what you possess
keep turning me, or let me turn you
let the center of our circle sink into the veins of the wooden floor
what time is it? in the next phrase we shall marry
time after all is only a gust; it passes through us, and we alter its shape
my name is Eurydice, I am a nymph from the valley
let every untrustworthy institution bear witness for us
IV. Her Slow Death
Their wedding takes place in the interlude, her death
also begins in the interlude. Music, at times, is a compulsion
the motif joins their palms, likewise
at the climax he must release her
he attaches importance to minute omens.
Do not let the heel land on the edge of a tile, whichever eyelid begins to jump close it
his already fragile life cannot withstand the next blow, or
he will lose air like an empty trouser leg and fall to the floor.
One person steps over him, then the next, and another. Humiliation
falls like a seal into his silent folds.
He releases her with great care, perhaps
he already knows that her departure is inevitable. Loss
is so common it is almost his mother tongue. But
how exhilarating the brief wedding, every beast prostrate at his feet, the birds
blessing her. He stands one foot away
she closes her eyes, enjoying
the free turn. And he watches her with the clarity of tears.
The hand clutching the ring trembles.
It happens anyway. Slowly flowing
fate pours down as a waterfall. Before the interlude ends
a venomous snake silently reaches Eurydice's ankle.
I did not bite her from malice, in fact I too am
a victim of a certain standard. The snake says at its later trial,
humans slander me, say I tempted Eve, say I killed Eurydice, in any event
say I offended beauty, but they decide what beauty is too, if you ask me
how can beauty be the lowest common denominator, if you ask me
Beauty is incompleteness. Beauty is ugliness seeping through. Beauty is the scar.
The happy trumpet continues, all things rising like hydrogen
she alone falling,
like the handle of porcelain, a flower, opening toward the center of the earth
V. He Goes to Recover the Irrecoverable
You want to reconnect the blown fuse on a night without power, you want
to shield with a lighter the stove that will not catch, you want
to retrace your road, some kind person standing there waiting
for the owner of the key ring and lucky charm to return.
At the wedding you catch Eurydice's falling waist and lean her against your shoulder
you turn as you did in the storm aboard Argo, turn, turn, the dutiful clown never tires
this is how the dance is. Baldy once told you. Jazz too, slaves are full of energy
however much pain you have, that is how much energy it has.
So you circle her corpse and turn until both her feet leave the floor
like a napkin flying from your neck, a
weightless shackle.
Alone, you dance an exceptionally sad dance for two, and the phrase follows your steps
becoming an exceptionally sad phrase.
Gods and nymphs weep for it. Beneath your soles, the bleeding floor begins to collapse
the road into hell opens before you.
VI. The Scales
Hades has an official title of his own, he is also
an enthusiastic scientist
he sits on a tall chair at the road's end, playing with humanity's newest invention:
humans are close to discovering the universal word, possessing it will explain the secret of the cosmos
a unified theory, soon to reconcile quantum mechanics and relativity
rules are the theme of this universe. Simple rules help complex reality evolve. Did Einstein not say
God does not play dice.
I perform my duty faithfully, Hades says. Strictness is a necessary quality
so I can properly administer the population statistics, distribution of wealth, and entry and exit procedures in the register of life and death
if you want human fairness, young man
then dream on. If you expect to describe divine fairness, young man
prepare for cruelty—the universal word is, after all, more than humans can bear.
But you truly made me weep, why is that?
Then let us do this, for once I shall break precedent and make an exception:
you may leave with your wife, you may bring her back from death
but you must finish dancing this piece
a friendly reminder: this tunnel is sinister and long—
and before you reach the human world, under no circumstances may you look back at her.
VII. He Hopes
At first there is darkness. At first there are no lights.
People all dance without seeing, secretly embrace.
In barns, cotton fields, roads with shadows.
Then a ring of light grows at the end, like a vaporous pupil
he dances too hard. He smiles falsely like a coerced performer
it is not a happy dance even if it looks like one.
Now he cannot feel her weight, he wonders
whether they parted long ago
Eurydice, we are almost there, he says.
Eurydice, when we arrive I will make you a white dress, he says.
Eurydice, I will build a small wooden boat, at dawn we will depart, he says.
Eurydice, tell me about the valley where you were born, I want to know, he says.
Eurydice?
Eurydice.
Love, too, is a compulsion. Everything that made him journey now makes him turn.
He looks back
she falls
Eurydice? Eurydice.
VIII. Her Long Fall
She once divined her fate with an eraser, on a rainy day
she sat, first row beside the window. After several tumbles the eraser
stood in the center of her desk, she concluded
that nothing in her life would happen as she wished.
The tip of her nose brushed the people she loved,
like a probe, a
deep-sea submarine, gliding silently across
the surfaces of things she found tender
she and her cat in the living room.
The television reports the Tower of Babel's gratifying progress,
these days Mount Olympus is no longer tall, with drones people
glimpse the gods' real estate. A rich man claims
he can send humans to Mars, or make them immortal, but first
you must prove that you belong to the most valuable group.
On the dance floor she learns endurance, learns
to accept the music's manipulation, accept
life's unknowability, accept
the small death at the end of every song.
She falls freely in a stranger's arms
and the path of free fall reminds her of
a kind of flight she once read about. This flight makes her
weep
people mistake the meaning of her silence. They guess
either Hades cursed her, or she said nothing
on the road to the human world to test Orpheus's loyalty.
They insist, a suspicious thing must have a cause, change
must have a beginning. But she only feels
that the phrase belonging to them has ended.
She no longer resists the fall. As she falls freely
his astonished face is the same as at the wedding,
he recedes like railway markers when a train reverses.
She closes her eyes and feels again that flight.
IX. His Predestined Life
Orpheus plays the clarinet before a shop window. Or dances with his head lowered. He refuses to leave
barely earning enough to live. Inside the window, a mannequin in white.
People enter to apply makeup, try clothes, haggle. Eyebrow pencils move before the mirrors as if
completing an urgently due assignment.
Do you think he's sick, people at the mirrors discuss,
he looks like he has a past. Is he
an I-person or a P-person or, bipolar? He needs medication.
Perhaps he is already taking it, taking too much, perhaps injecting something.
He needs a course of treatment to become normal.
X. They Cut Off His Head
He must finish this song alone. He must enter that venue alone.
Voices boil, balloons and colored flags float, carnival floats pass through the center.
He finds an open space, places his black hat on the ground, takes out his clarinet.
He plays, now and then lowering his head to dance.
No one watches him, everyone waits
for the announcement of that historic result
a red banner declares: it will change the position of humanity, it will end human history
it is a universal word.
On the giant screen is the pinnacle of the Tower of Babel, the bishop
stands at the center of the completion ceremony, awaiting the placing of the final brick.
Everyone holds their breath watching the broadcast. The bishop trembles with a sheet of letter paper and reads out the universal word
silence, then sweeps through the crowd like a wave
people kneel, weep. They had not imagined
the word would be so cold, so vulgar. They had not imagined
humans were not blessed, but abandoned. They feel
utterly deceived. Their lives, rich or poor,
have been wasted. They are generic, humble, fixed, welded shut.
Then they notice him, nameless Orpheus
dancing by himself in the open space, as though he has not heard the desperate news.
Angry people step forward and shove him. He staggers, then continues dancing.
More people come, kick him, stamp him. He rolls in the center of the crowd.
Can't you be quiet?
Someone brings a machete and swings it through his neck.
They plant his head in the earth. Can you be quiet now?
Then chaos. Someone declares the word false. Someone claims
it is actually not one word, but two. Two become four. Four become sixteen.
People bring saws and cut into the foundation of Babel. Then torches, setting fires everywhere.
Look, madness too is a monotonous variation.
And the head of Orpheus pulses in the earth.
Now—he murmurs—try, with the music, to dance.
XI. His Ending
from the other side of the dance floor she comes
from the palm of the cat, the edge of the eraser, the down on the tip of a nose
from the tunnel's end she walks slowly
from the reverse of the hour hand she turns
from the beginning of gravity she rises
In tribute to Anne Carson, Wanyuan and Lindy Hop